Saturday, November 15, 2008

S-A-TUR-DAY NIGHT!


I just spent the last 45 minutes creating and attempting to attach a playlist to this thing so you, my avid readers, could enjoy some music on your frequent visits. ;) Obviously, since there is no music playing, that didn't work. I'll try again when I'm not so tired.
Why am I putzing around on the computer on a Saturday night, you ask? Well, sit back and relax as I fill you in...
The plan was to meet up at Blake & Niecka's around 8:30. We then would head over to her brother's house to enjoy some pizza and girl time as the men watched the UFC fight. Sounds like a killer Saturday night, right? I thought so too. However, the son had other plans for his still-too-young-to-be-staying-in-on-the-weekends mom. 
Actually, its not entirely his fault. Being the cautious mother I like to think I am, I thought it would be smart to make sure Cash got his flu shot at his 6 month check-up. Still a wise decision, however we now have a somewhat fussy, congested, coughing, gunky-eyed little man. Since no illness or injury seems to phase this kid (remember, this is the child that was unknowingly starved for the first 3 months of his little life) he endured an afternoon at Memaw & Papaw's playing with his cousins in from Ft Wayne, and a rather lengthy trip to Target and back. All in the lovely wind and cold that is Indiana in November. 
Feeling guilty about dragging him along all day when he clearly isn't totally healthy, I felt like it'd be unfair to take him to another house to hang out and be sick all evening - for Cash mostly, but also for everyone else in the general area. And we come to the point of this blog...I didn't go. I really wanted to. REALLY wanted to...but alas, the mother's heart won out in this one. And isn't it truly strange how in an instant your heart - the heart of a wife, daughter, sister, friend - gets traded in for this humongous, crazy, always-worrying heart that melts when you hear laughter from your baby for the first time or see him smile when you get him up from his nap (that wasn't nearly long enough)? The heart that stops beating for a split-second when you realize he's slept through his 4am feeding for the first time; The heart that could stare at picture after picture of the same little person for hours and think each one is adorable in it's own way....
I'm sitting in front of my computer - at 11pm on a Saturday night, mind you - with tears in my eyes thinking of all the ways Andrew Cash Hollingsworth has changed the way I think, feel, PRAY, and love. And all those changes took place at 12:07pm on May 11, 2008 when I saw his purple scrunched up face for the very first time. Actually...I take that back. Some of the changes came about when I saw that 2nd line on the pregnancy test back in late August of 2007. But I'm forever different. Everyone told me life would never be the same, and they were right. But what I didn't realize was how wonderfully different it would be...
I thoroughly enjoyed my evening in with Cash.  I will cherish every minute of just me and him because they are numbered. There will come a day when he's the one going out on Saturday nights. But thank God those days are far, far away...

3 comments:

drew, melissa, and jonas said...

Whew...let me wipe my tears :) Isn't it amazing how much your heart grows?! Being a mommy changed me more than I ever imagined...and for the better!

Thanks so much for your note on my blog. It's good to know I'm not alone in the worrying battle! God is so good.

annie said...

okie dokie b.... now, how do you know drew clemens?!?! he and i were in the same major at Purdue... and he was in Fairway - the Christian boys cooperative house, that was one of our brother houses!!! (i was in Shoemaker)... WOW... SMALL world!

And wow, that post made me get choked up, too... and reminded me to love and treasure every second with my little tootie bootie ... even though she IS supposed to be taking her nap at the moment and that's just SO not happening.....................!

Bethany said...

Thats so weird you know Drew! His parents are friends of my mom & dads - our dads went to seminary together (I think).
Also his wife, Melissa's, parents are friends of my mom & dad's - they went to the church my grandpa pastored for like 25 yrs in Crawfordsville and our dad's sang in a group together. :)
It IS a small world after all...